..What is going to happen??

why are we mortals always plaqued by this formidable query, in every situation?
I would like to dissect the basis of its origin as to why? objectively it suggests a hidden worry. An attchment to the outcome, wanting it to be in one's favor. But why? I shall not stop living or breathing if the outcome is not the way i expect it or wish it to be? will i? ... No, not really, may be i will have to re think and remake some new plans/ strategems for survival/ look for other avenues. Just a little more effort,
why not do it in your wait time instead, and stop the attchment to the outcomes! well I am trying to motivate myself to work, but even as i type all this I am getting depressed and sad. Why o why, can't something fall into place for me.. for a change. I am really tired of working and more so tired of struggling.

why is nothing looking up for me?? what did i do wrong? what is wrong with me? why all the time this feeling of unsurity??? why are others controlling my future? why do others have an authority over my life, my future, my destiny? why ??
my work is eveluated by others, some silly work is appreciated while somthing i slaved over for months is neglected??

I am sorry, this is one of my depressive wanderings in midst of uncertainities and unsurities.... this wait is killing me ...