Friend Power!

Good Morning

I have been in a weird mood coupled with so much stress and work pressure this past week. The times are a bit trying these days for me, amidst so many faux passes and goof ups that are slowly getting linked up with me(still reeling with the aftermath of the quake… other things are still coming up…). L  kal pata nahi kya naya scandal hone waala hai… uska pata nahi..

Ok, I admit its all my fault I have not been able to fully keep my focus on the priorities in my life… have been a bit pushy lately and trying to direct lives according to what I felt would be for the best… in all this I simply failed to realize in my enthusiasm and over involvement that it is all going to fall about my ears one day. After that rude awakening I realized its not the first time things like this have happened with me. I have always wished and pushed people to their potential… on the verge of being bossy and overbearing at times… issuing directives… even went ahead and have chalked out the PAP’s (personal actions plans) for them… prepared routines and timetables for them… (please note… my life has been wonderfully disorganized and projects had to wait to be finished, while I worked mundane projects for others … considering those to be priorities… while they were busy pursuing other goals/interests)

Unfortunately, my memory is short term… and very selective for hurt and disappointments like this. I tend to wallow in misery and self pity and feel disgusted with myself again and again… but the moment a similar opportunity presents itself again… I jump right ahead completely forgetting my prior wonderful experiences… and as expected I face the same results … So what do you call a person who repeats the same mistakes and refuses to learn from them… ? ? ?

 

I am a very good organizer and a manager… but when it comes to personal time management I am the biggest flop show that ever existed on the face of this earth… It is still a matter of surprise & mystery to me, how I could get where I am today with religiously practicing the “golden ways of time wastage” I find to squander away my most precious ever depleting resource…

I had not planed to write about all post depressional phase post… but words simply pored out and my fingers were self directed on the key pad and I didn’t have the courage or the mood to exercise restrain … but I am fortunate to have a bunch of kindred spirits who watch out for me and even when I was feeling deep in the ditches with not even a ray of light or hope … they have gifted me with a smile and wiped away the tears … made me laugh at my own mistakes and helped me move on, gently guiding me along, still accepting me in a totally non judgmental way.

And all of a sudden the world doesn’t feel so bad anymore… and I know today … that for these wonderful souls I shall do all I can … they are my Friend Power… and I am blessed to have them J … every second of life that I am able to spend with them, which ever way possible is of immense worth to me!...

“…distances are a mere phones’ call away…”

I know one day we will all be at worthy places… well settled in life and in our respective professions. Wonderful things will happen to all of us along, no matter how things turn out in the future for us, but we shall be there… for each other… “Just a mere phone call away…”

…Amen!