pamela is leaving....

Do you know that loud funny girl around the corner?... with a cute lil dog scampring about her feet??...
She is Pamela.... my first american friend.
But she is leaving, graduation is a time for celebration, and partings. She called me yesterday ... " Hey, I have this intervu, on thurday and I have to pack and leave tomorrow. can you come help me pack? "
.. Sure! What are friends for?

I knew she was gonna go... but its gonna be so abrupt. i was not prepared for it. But... atleast she is just a phone call away... if nothing else. But coming to terms with the reality that... it takes a while for ... things just happen.. relations deepen.. and then all of a sudden, you have to see them go.

Over the span of a quarter century, I have a lot of friends, so many of them I don't have a clue where they are? whats happening with them. A while back, with all this namesdatabase thing I was able to look up from old school friends. But I am still looking for many of them.

I hope to be in touch with them all. .. Okay Pammy I am coming.... God the amount of stuff you have. ;-)

Moving and packing is a pain here.. more on that in one of my next blogs.. and "Dr Know it all" will give spl tips on that. Has been in moving business for last 2 years, with moving every 6 months on an avareage... bechaare ko abhi tak koi permanent place nahi mili..

Remind me to write the Baanke story too... it all starts there. Dec'04 .. actually the first move was in Aug'1998.. but these past year has seen some extensive moves..

.. Khushi!... the state of mind.

I wish .... there was a switch to turn on the Khushi!.. and switch off the .. feel bad feeling.
But I am feeling bad.

Why??? ................ pata nahi!

koi problem??............. NAi..sab theek hai.

Fir kee hoeya?................ kuch nahi, bas iddan hi... jee jeha kharaab hai...

Par kyon?............. pata nahi!

Hain???.............. kuch nahi yaar..

These were the excerpts of a conversation with a friend... ab aisi situation mein... I get so confused, as to why is that happenning? .. Okay the bottom line is .. could it be somehow instigated by what I might have casually said and done...
So, while this person here could be struggling with his own problems... I get depressed ..not knowing ..if it could be cuz of me and I don't want it.... I want things out n open and crystal clear too. ... galteeyan to insaano se hi hoti hain...... my friends would let me know!! I expect that.


But I am fortunate.. that all my friends are confronters like me and insist that "get it out of the system.. jo kuch v hai...".. Is it really worth it... " jaane do"... bhaar mein jaaye.. jo bhi ho tum kyoon paresaan hote ho... in the long run.. acche doston ka saath aur acche karam hi matter karte hai...

Cheer Up!!!

:-)

" Each day is a new day, Like a fresh blog.... don't let it go blank... Dream... visualize... and work on your dreams..."

You alone are the master of your own free will... and maker of your own destiny...... choose happiness over sadness!.. Contentment over dissatisfaction! ... Khushi over gum! (fevigum, bubblegum, chewing gum, guar gum, jolt gum, etc...)...... Exhuberation over depression!!!

Today I choose... activity over dormancy,... life over death!... I am not ever gonna get this day of my life back!.. so why not live it fully today?

What is stopping you?.... .............nothing really,.. all the reasons that you are thinking are somthing that can surely be confronted and dealt with!

So Why Not????



And with this note.... I GIVE UP!!!... main thakk ke haar maan layi... bas!! No more in that regard... cuz no matter how much or what I do or say... .. will anything change.. ?

Why do you want to be successful ??

paraphernalia_unlimited

"Concentrate all your thoughts upon the work at hand. The sun's rays do not burn until brought to a focus."
--- Alexander Graham Bell (1847-1922)Scottish-born American inventor

bchallenge:Success breeds success. Set a challenging, yet doable, goal for June. Check your progress weekly.

Time kyoon garak kar rahe ho...??

Aaap se kuch sawaal hain humein...

1. Aap kaise apne aap ko kisi kaam ke liye tayaar karte ho??

... koi barri paresahhani nahi.... jab sir pe chittarron ki chaan hone waali ho ... to apne aap hi sab kaam ho jaate hain.. fir hum bhambiri ban jaate hain.. :-)
its fear motivation ... plain and simple!!

... it does not last long though... aur woh bhi kaam nahi kar rahi hai... ab

kya karoon.. fir...
..... shock motivation is the next in line... laaton ke bhoot baaton se nahi maan rahe hain... danda peer hai vigreyan tigreeyan da....

Dose ki zuroorat lag rahi hai? Woh din door nahi hai, yeh khawaaish bahut jaldi poori ho jaane waali hai :-(
- Pata nahi yaar.

Pehle aap normal humans waali routiene mein aa jaayen, that is the reason. US mein reh kar Indian time zone koi tyaag dein to aap ke mental/spiritual well being ke liye accha hoga. Follow the solar rthym.

- Ajj taan nahi, par kal ton try karoon.

Chal fir talk to you later. Bye n take care. Do keep in touch.
- Ok. Same 'ere.