I was just wondering if some one is visiting my blog or its just me?? if you do..pls do let me know.
So that I can atlest try to unleash some creative writing skills and stop being so boring and depressing.....
Thursday, May 25, 2006
..What is going to happen??
why are we mortals always plaqued by this formidable query, in every situation?
I would like to dissect the basis of its origin as to why? objectively it suggests a hidden worry. An attchment to the outcome, wanting it to be in one's favor. But why? I shall not stop living or breathing if the outcome is not the way i expect it or wish it to be? will i? ... No, not really, may be i will have to re think and remake some new plans/ strategems for survival/ look for other avenues. Just a little more effort,
why not do it in your wait time instead, and stop the attchment to the outcomes! well I am trying to motivate myself to work, but even as i type all this I am getting depressed and sad. Why o why, can't something fall into place for me.. for a change. I am really tired of working and more so tired of struggling.
why is nothing looking up for me?? what did i do wrong? what is wrong with me? why all the time this feeling of unsurity??? why are others controlling my future? why do others have an authority over my life, my future, my destiny? why ??
my work is eveluated by others, some silly work is appreciated while somthing i slaved over for months is neglected??
I am sorry, this is one of my depressive wanderings in midst of uncertainities and unsurities.... this wait is killing me ...
I would like to dissect the basis of its origin as to why? objectively it suggests a hidden worry. An attchment to the outcome, wanting it to be in one's favor. But why? I shall not stop living or breathing if the outcome is not the way i expect it or wish it to be? will i? ... No, not really, may be i will have to re think and remake some new plans/ strategems for survival/ look for other avenues. Just a little more effort,
why not do it in your wait time instead, and stop the attchment to the outcomes! well I am trying to motivate myself to work, but even as i type all this I am getting depressed and sad. Why o why, can't something fall into place for me.. for a change. I am really tired of working and more so tired of struggling.
why is nothing looking up for me?? what did i do wrong? what is wrong with me? why all the time this feeling of unsurity??? why are others controlling my future? why do others have an authority over my life, my future, my destiny? why ??
my work is eveluated by others, some silly work is appreciated while somthing i slaved over for months is neglected??
I am sorry, this is one of my depressive wanderings in midst of uncertainities and unsurities.... this wait is killing me ...
Wednesday, May 24, 2006
Mathematical modeling
What is it? Sounds like some thing so hi-fi... every fifth guy tries to impress you with some stuff.. why can't I make any sense out of it. if someone will say they work on mathematical models... either they are very smart or don't know what they are doing... i sadly fall in the second category. But Why?? Do I have a choice... dfeq's are something I never could fathom as i should and agin this.... grr!!!... I need to work on them, I need to get started with the model.... 1 month, is the time I have been suggested... then I want it to be done in 20 days.... Par Kiddan???
Collaborative work is very interesting.. actually it is really helpful too if you and your collaborators are willing and ready to help you out. I hope I get nice collaborators. Some one has suggested its like we share the work, each contributes to the portion they are best at and complile the works that is substancially impressive. ... in short it makes no sense to anyone but a selected few.
I was talking research in applied mathematics here, from a non mathematical perspective.
Collaborative work is very interesting.. actually it is really helpful too if you and your collaborators are willing and ready to help you out. I hope I get nice collaborators. Some one has suggested its like we share the work, each contributes to the portion they are best at and complile the works that is substancially impressive. ... in short it makes no sense to anyone but a selected few.
I was talking research in applied mathematics here, from a non mathematical perspective.
Dr Free Advice
.. A feeling of tongue in cheek, after a well deserved snub.. uff!!.. I was only trying to help... but yes that is the way with the world some times... free advice is concidered rude, imposing, meddlesome... big scary words and I don't think any of it suits me... so no more free stuff .. I will mind my own business... but I think its mean to let things be ... when you know you can help.. but then I guess all of it involves maturity of perception, understanding and an open mind to appreciate things.
Lets me know how you feel about this.
Lets me know how you feel about this.
Monday, May 01, 2006
..Orkut..
Recenty, I got myself invited to join in orkut... Having listenened to all these ppl keep taking about the weird comments, testimonials, and networking. Riding a huge curiousosity wave; I got myself launched in there.
Within 2 days of frantic orkutting: search for friends and acquaintance's and ppl not met as yet... plus tryng to look in who are whos friends... are they mine too.. or could they be? It was very surprising how that network worked, some one is knowing someone and the series go on.
But, I am not here to advertise orkut, personally to me this site poses a threat to personal privacy. But we can take calculated risks. I looked up some lost friends, some friends of friends and... invited my own as well... and ofcourse a few ppl one might want to know.
How to get a 2 way communication going?? But more importantly, no matter the outcome, is it really worth the effort??
That is what sometimes the whole dilemma of life can be. We want assured success of our efforts; if we know from start we are gonna fail, why bother? The time is important and we all want to utilize our resources in worthwile and productive business( can be applicable to anything) and reap long term benifits right?
Within 2 days of frantic orkutting: search for friends and acquaintance's and ppl not met as yet... plus tryng to look in who are whos friends... are they mine too.. or could they be? It was very surprising how that network worked, some one is knowing someone and the series go on.
But, I am not here to advertise orkut, personally to me this site poses a threat to personal privacy. But we can take calculated risks. I looked up some lost friends, some friends of friends and... invited my own as well... and ofcourse a few ppl one might want to know.
How to get a 2 way communication going?? But more importantly, no matter the outcome, is it really worth the effort??
That is what sometimes the whole dilemma of life can be. We want assured success of our efforts; if we know from start we are gonna fail, why bother? The time is important and we all want to utilize our resources in worthwile and productive business( can be applicable to anything) and reap long term benifits right?
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