i WANT to VENT!!!!!

Hi _______,

I want to vent today, ... i didn't blog for almost 2 years ? ... been busy, settling in I was adopted into 2 new families temporarily had a relatively new job ... was a bit exited about a potential match(es) ..:P ... i was generally very excited to meet the teddy bear guy ... there were so many possibilities back then. Its been more than 2 years, i used to be hopeful, optimistic that things will be rosy someday, there will be a wonderful guy committed to me for life, I'll be climbing up confident on the corporate ladder. I'll have a place of my own ... i had dreams ... i had hopes ... back then

now with the things that have happened .... life has not offered anything the way i hoped for yet...

Feeling so low & disappointed .... lost some of the people whom I loved dearly and cared for ... i have been such an emotional fool, ... i can deal with black and white spaces ... relationships and devine plans are so many variations in shades of gray! ....

if you recently got married, had a kid, progressed in anyway ... I congratulate you but pls don't expect me to call you or write to you .. I am done with you asking me about my situation, if some progress happens at my end ... I will let you know ... you ask why its not happening ... I'll be dammed if i knew ...... and if I knew i would do something about it ... right ? Oh so you think you know ?? ... so why the hell are you not telling me ? ... whats stopping you to help me ...

I want change .... big time ... and mind you for the better ... I am SICK & TIRED of the sameness ... I don't want to hear another sad news ... if you have happy tidings for me ... pray do share ... i need a cheer in my spirits ... nothing i feel is going right at this point...

I am way too bored of routiene, I am sorry i am not interesed in hanging out with anyone ... I feel like fleeing ... but where ? ... I DONT KNOWWWW!!!! ... I CANT GO FAR ... Anyways....

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