If....

If I could catch a rainbow, I would do it, just for you,
And, share with you, its beauty, on the days you're feeling blue.

If I could, I would build a mountain, you could call your very own.
A place to find serenity, a place just to be alone.

And if I could turn back time… we could all have avoided this pain and hurt,

I am to blame as I am the eldest and the responsibility for sanity lies on me.

If there had been open talk, things might have been different,

If I could, I would take away the misery n the pain due to this confusion.

If I could, I would take your troubles, and toss them into the sea.
But, all these things, I'm finding, are impossible for me.

I cannot build a mountain, or catch a rainbow fair;
but, let me be, what I know best,
A Friend, who's there.

I promise to defend you, should the occasion ever rise,
And, I promise to wipe away the tears,
which might stream from your weeping eyes.

Let me be the Friend, the one that you know best.
I will never leave you, on that, you can surely rest.

If only you would talk and help me clear things up...

Emotions!

You say that an emotion is the mind's reflection in the body. But sometimes there is a conflict between the two: the mind says "no" while the emotion says "yes," or the other way around.

If you really want to know your mind, the body will always give you a truthful reflection, so look at the emotion or rather feel it in your body. If there is an apparent conflict between them, the thought will be the lie, the emotion will be the truth. Not the ultimate truth of who you are, but the relative truth of your state of mind at that time.

Conflict between surface thoughts and unconscious mental processes is certainly common. You may not yet be able to bring your unconscious mind activity into awareness as thoughts, but it will always be reflected in the body as an emotion, and of this you can become aware. To watch an emotion in this way is basically the same as listening to or watching a thought, which I described earlier. The only difference is that, while a thought is in your head, an emotion has a strong physical component and so is primarily felt in the body. You can then allow the emotion to be there without being controlled by it. You no longer are the emotion; you are the watcher, the observing presence. If you practice this, all that is unconscious in you will be brought into the light of consciousness.

- from the book, @ Elkhart

The Stress Buster

I dont really know how it happened, but I have been super stressed lately, I mean I know the official definition of stress or what are the symptoms. I have experienced the lowest stage... the frustration. I have been overwhelmed with my research. But well you all know this already.

Big deal, but i was just wondering... what kind of person am I who is ready and willing to open up and pour my hear out to any willing listener... its all about .. meri life ki sorry story... aur I am really tired and bored of this sorry phase. I wish it gets over soon.

Some changes have to be put in effect... hey listen to this... To achieve something you've never achieved before, you must become someone you've never been before. -Bria Tracy

and then To the question of your life you are the answer, and to the problems of your life you are the solution. -Joe Cordare

so seeking solutions... has been keeping me busy... I havent found any yet. But I am more aware of what isnt working for me.

I have been under a self imposed exile... shunned all contact from the outside world, except a few ppl... and they have been at the recieving end of all the unwanted attention and had to share my blues... well should not forget to mention my family... who have been there all along...

I have been feeling truly hopeless, clueless, miserable, distressed.... yukkky... frustrated... but to hell with all of this. I have to learn to live with it and accept it try to change .

Dell Customer Advocate, Todd:- deserves a spl mention as his comment on my Dell experience entry initiated a dialogue, which has resulted in my laptop getting new external look this new year. Thank you !

Till laters



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To offer no resistance to life is to be in a state of grace, ease, and lightness. This state is then no longer dependent upon things being in a certain way, good or bad. It seems almost paradoxical, yet when your inner dependency on form is gone, the general conditions of your life, the outer forms, tend to improve greatly. Things, people, or conditions that you thought you needed for your happiness now come to you with no struggle or effort on your part, and you are free to enjoy and appreciate them - while they last. All those things, of course, will still pass away, cycles will come and go, but with dependency gone there is no fear of loss anymore. Life flows with ease.

-Eckhart Tolle
The Power of Now





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Today is 5th n my 85th post...

Only 20 days to christmas, need to seek the new years resolutions...
every year i used to make them religiously and break them with equal zeal.

but this year i wish things to be different... i have successfully completed so many years of life, experienced numerous joys sorrows, failures and a few successes as well.
Over all I don't know why, i still termed my life as successful so far.. may be cuz i am in an optimistic mode today after a long time..

Met P today, see even though i couldn't satify him but still mood is not off.. it has been influenced by his mood... cuz he didn't give me a hard time.. i feel motivated again... yes I can do it.. and i will do it.. its just talking its own sweet time.. but I will get it done!

I am shooting for the year end as my deadline.. lets c

I also realized how our behavious affects the other ppl's actions and motivations too at times... may be that is why they say man is a social animal. its really interesting how, a few sec's exchange with unknown ppl lifts up the mood .. and at times some folks simply make you see red.. is it all about the vibes ? or is there a pattern somewhere... would like to reasearch on it sometime... may be we can develop an mathematical probabalistic model as well.. one of the reason that got me interested in Biostatistics.. but PhD..? .. I don't want to study for exams anymore.. i just want to work on stuff I like.. he he
any comments?

aap ki Nimmo

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